mini moments

i don't know why I am still shocked when God's generous and creative nature shows up in pain. already, since June, i have multiple vivid memories of BIG God surprises of healing and relationship. i haven't planned these mini moments or controlled them or expected them in any way, but at just the right times they happen, its like when the sun peaks through after a long rainstorm and you are only prepared for the dark and thunder but then you feel the warmth of the sun on your face. 

i will never get used to someone crying for me. it is the most surreal feeling to imagine being cared about like that, to believe and trust in your family and community enough that you would receive their tears on your behalf. it totally moves me, and it gives me great peace. it reminds me we will be okay, even better than okay, we will be loved. 

little o, remind me later of these these things. of all the mini moments I experienced as i wrestled with grief and hope in having a family.